Ah, week 8. Yes, yes, I know that this is being posted at nearly week 12, but maybe that’s a good representation of the last few weeks! Yes. I hit a little bit of a stand-still!
My orignial goal was to post a video per week, but by week 8 I still only had 2 videos. I’ve filmed about three videos since my “HOW I DO MY EVERYDAY MAKEUP!” video, but none of them got to see the light of day. They all felt really forced and I wasn’t confident in any aspect of them. Ive realized that if I have a good video idea, or good hair day then I feel a lot better because I have something positive to focus on. A lack of confidence in video ideas and appearance has really put my In-Depth on the back burner.
Spring Break was orignially a time where I was going to film a lot of videos, but really has turned into a much needed break and time to regroup! I have had a lot of time to think of video ideas and organize my thoughts. I have lots of ideas and maybe not enough time and motivation! I think now I have enough inspiration and space (new iPad for filming! Yay!) to start meeting my goal of one video or more a week!
Now my mentor has been on vacation for about two weeks, so I’ll try to answer the following questions to the best of my ability:
1. What has been my most difficult mentoring challenge so far? Why?
I think the hardest part lately has been seeing my mentor. She’s been traveling a lot, making our one hour sessions pretty crazy! By the time I talk about my experiences from the time we’ve spent apart, times up! I think I could definitely work on making the most of my time with her and organizing prior.
2. What is working well? Why?
I think that having an open mind is making my mentoring sessions more valuable. Some of her strategies and ways to make myself more comfortable in my own skin are strange at first, but have really opened my eyes. Nobody is going to automatically cure you of your insecurities. They can give you strategies, but you’re the one in the drivers seat. I’ve really been trying to let myself go and try new things and I think it’s making things with my mentor go a lot smoother.
3. What could be working better? How can you make sure this happens?
Like I mentioned earlier, I could definitely work on my planning and organizing. I really want to straighten out exactly WHAT I want out of my mentoring sessions. Maybe the fact that I don’t know is something worth talking about. My whole In-Depth project thus far has been slowly refining my goals for this project. I’m definitely growing as a person and learning a lot more about myself, but I want to sharpen my vision.