Dream – A Found Poem

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Even now,



the adjective




a place

they find




I originally chose page 13 because of the description of the forest. They used words such as mythical, spiritual, Eden, etc. to really paint a vivid picture of BC. I wanted to use these amazing words to paint a different picture which still gives the same whimsical vibe.

I really like the poem I ended up creating because it almost like a frame for the reader to fill in. It feels so bare-boned and short, but truly allows you to fill in the blanks and interpret it how you want.

My interpretation is that even now, as people have evolved and so has the world around us, we still describe our ideal future as mythical, or one we only see in our dreams. We always want more than we have. We want peace, happiness and freedom- but at this point, it still seems like a mythical future. Even now, people use the adjective mythical to represent a place they find a future.

The painting I used to accompany my poem is one that I feel really captured the mythical and whimsical vibe I was feeling. It represents a girl dreaming of a seemingly mythical future. Dreaming of an alternate reality where magic lives and hatred doesn’t.
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Put The Gore on Hold… #InDepthPost6

Don’t get me wrong- I love my mentor. HOWEVER, she hasn’t really been- you know- talking or replying to me whatsoever!! Its been a few weeks since my last post, and therefore a few weeks since I have heard from Ashley. I’ve emailed, called and texted her as often as possible without being harrassing or anything crazy like that. I completely understand how busy she is, and her hectic schedule was something she addressed with me, however I am getting a little concerned. I’m sure it’s not too late to find another mentor in the meantime. I have been continuing to practice small effects on my own but I do need a mentor to help me challenge myself and learn more “from the book” techniques. Sorting out this mess is going to be my challenge for the next portion of my In-Depth journey.


“Surgeons would be the best at special effects makeup for sure.”


The main concept originally brought to my attention by my mentor was the concept of bruising. Bruises are probably the most common injuries, occuring alongside other wounds and injuries as well. For this reason? it’s important to have a bruise look realistic alone, as well as around another injury. The way a bruise looks tells not only how recent it was caused, but what kind of bruise it is and possibly how it was caused/how severe it is. In order to get a full understanding of bruises and how to recreate them in a realistic way, I’ve been researching and studying bruises. Hmm… never thought I would say that I’m studying bruises out of anything! What’s weirder than that is that my research on bruises has almost turned into an obsession. They’re so fascinating and beautiful to me. The idea that “things get worse before they get better.” not only relates to life but- bruises too!

Since I have been riding solo for the past little while, alternatives have been my go-to. Without a mentor to assist me in purchasing latex and other legit special effect products, I have been taking the DIY route. Using gel and eyeshadow for blood, powders and eyeshadows for bruises and vaseline and cotton for skin. Oh man! I can’t wait to get my hands on some real products, but I guess if I can make realistic effects with vaseline and cotton- I can do anything! Improvisation!

Britain: Smart but Sinister

Colonization: The action or process of settling among and establishing control over the indigenous people of an area.

Benefits of Colonization:

  • Cheap resources (timber, metals, furs, etc.) to use for trade as well as personal projects and growth
  • A source of manpower, mainly for armed forces
  • Provided geostatic bases for home country, Military and trade purposes
  • Increased international prestige

This concept of taking advantage of indigenous people and their land for personal gain makes me sick to my stomach. The fact that one of four motives to colonize Canada was to gain international prestige is crazy to me.  However, no matter how outrageous the concept may be, it is undoubtedly smart. Sinister, yet smart. French Canadians like to view the creation of Canadian confederation as some sort of revenge against England, but I do not believe that that is the case. I think Great Britain did not get so powerful without being smart. I mean, we call ourselves independent yet the Queen is still on our money today. There is no way that the formation of Canada did not benefit them in some way, and continue to do so. As of 2017, a year in which colonization is a term only used in history books, did the ends justify the means? Did the acts of Great Britain in the 15th century directly affect their current state of 2017? This is what I want to know. However, despite the conclusions that I come to, the ends will never justify the means. There will never be a reason to dismiss reconciliation, or pat Britain on the back for colonizing Canada.

Many articles agree that the British knew what they were doing, and Canadians shouldn’t celebrate their “break away from Britain” too much. Many people claim that Britain wanted to push their colonies away due to financial struggles anyways, but made it seem as if the ball was in Canada’s court in order to appease the people. For this reason, Canadians expected their pitch to the British in the London conference to be challenging, making them willing to agree to any deal the British proposed. This means the British would get everything they wanted in the first place, while Canadians celebrate their “victory”.

However, while Canadians viewed themselves as independent, they were constantly reminded of British colonialization. This reminder came across as a threat, causing Canada to break farther and farther from Britain’s rule every time it surfaced. The best example is World War One, where Britain declared war on Germany and Canada was assumed to fight as a British ally. This assumption and expectation for Canada to support Britain wasn’t the problem, as most Canadians were British immigrants and the pro-British bias of school curricula in Canada. The issue was the identity crisis that Canadians experienced when there were no records of Canada’s involvement in the War. Canada as a separate nation received no recognition, and were seen as nothing different than British.

Now if Canada has slowly been breaking away, why is the Queen on our money and how are we still tied to Britain? Shouldn’t we be completely separate by now?

I did tons of research and was actually very surprised at why the Queen is still on our money and how we aren’t really tied to Britain as much as I had assumed. In 1949, the British Empire constituted the London Declaration which established that all of Britains colonized states were to be “free and equal”. The British Empire’s territories all gained the right to self-governance, but remain linked together through something called the Commonwealth. The Commonwealth is an intergovernmental organization of 52 states which were previously a part of the British Empire. These states have no legal obligation to Britain or one another. Instead, they are united by language, history, culture and their shared values of democracy, free speech, human rights and the rule of law. However, the Queen is the monarch of Canada as well as 16 other members of Commonwealth, known as Commonwealth realms. The Queen also stands as the Head of the Commonwealth. Other member countries of Commonwealth have other heads of state, monarchs or are republics.

My original prediction was that Britain still had some control over Canada and it’s other territories, however that is far from the case. Britain and Canada share nothing but a good relationship and a monarchy. Britain isn’t even Canada’s number one trades partner anymore! To answer previous questions, no, Britain is not still in control of Canada. However, until 1949 I will admit that we were not as independent as John A. and his fellow Confed’s thought. Secondly, I would like to acknowledge my realization that due to Britain’s current state, there is no way we can say that the confederation of Canada did not benefit them. Everything in the past automatically effects the future, which is why we can say that Britain’s past acts effect the present.





Bloody Amazing!! #InDepthPost5

Oh man, this is too much fun. I almost feel as if my In-Depth is turning into two parts: Special Effects AND Modeling. I’m learning so much about the two industries, and they almost go perfectly hand-in-hand. How makeup comes across through a camera is everything in both of these industries. Under a flash, you can see all flaws and discolorations. Editing does come into play, but the less editing required the better.

Since my last post, I have not been able to meet with my mentor in person as she has been extremely busy. While I wait for our next encounter, so she told me to just experiment with effects on my own. She told me how to make my own fake skin with foundation, Vaseline and cotton. I used this to create some wounds (my best work shown in the included photos). Ashley said that she would take me to the store within the next week or so to get some latex and other professional products to use instead. I guess if I can make some realistic effects using DiY methods, who knows what I’ll be able to create using products intended for special effects.


Now, an update on the modeling situation. Over Spring break I was able to go downtown and have my first ever modeling interview with Numa Models, Vancouver. Eeeeep!! I cannot even explain how nervous I was! I have been to job interviews before, but I knew that this would be a completely different experience. After brief paperwork, I got to meet to amazing model and agency director Jade Tang. I was so starstruck, I’m not sure how I remained calm and didn’t pass out. She’s just as stunning in person! She took me into her office where she asked a few questions, and then she explained the steps I would need to complete if her and her team decided to work with me. She told me how I would have to take out my stretchers and piercings, keep my hair the same and- sigh, cut my nails and not wear polish. Yes- they bright pink claws will have to go. I may shed a few tears when I cut them! Jade also explained how the agency worked, the companies they’re associated with (Vogue, Gucci, Aritzia, etc.)  and what my modeling portfolio will have to look like. After the information portion was done- things got REAL awkward as she had to take all my measurements and physical information. Yikes!

The whole interview was about twenty minutes and went pretty smoothly, considering the huge girl crush I have on Jade Tang! About 24 hours after the interview I received an email from Jade saying that her team really wants to work with me and have me come in for a test shoot within the next month. YES THAT REALLY HAPPENED! As soon as I saw the word congratulations, I swear I blacked out in shock. So exciting!

I’ll keep you posted on my special effects endeavors and modeling introduction. WISH ME LUCK!


Une lettre à un ami

July 1854

My Dearest Lord Elgin,

Salut, mon ami. I have news to report to you, a celebration and declaration of success. Yes My Lord, I shall be the first French Canadian on whom this dignity has been conferred. I am equally the first, and in addition, the only French Canadian to have been made attorney general and chief justice in my native country. This is something which I shall wear proudly, and give to my fellow French-Canadians to wear as well.

Rest assured, My Lord, that I can appreciate the motives which have prompted you to act on this occasion as on many others, the desire to prove to my countrymen of French origin that political and social inferiority is no longer their lot, and that all doors will be open to their fellow citizens of other origins. We shall bring pride among our French-hearted Canadians. Politics will be based on opinion, not origin, from now on. Through all of this commotion, this ideal has kept it’s head above the water alongside us.

Yes, I have reached the point where some say I have confused political and social with national concerns… and with my own personal interests. However, this I disagree with this. I may have just received the title of barnet, but this will not confuse my intentions. This is a promise which I will keep close to my heart as I retire from a life of justice. Thank you for your understanding and support throughout my endeavors.

à la prochaine,

Sir Louis-Hippolyte Lafontaine


REDRUM #InDepthPost4


Oh man, oh man. This is too much fun!

Not only is it fun to walk out of the bathroom and scare the life out of my mother, but special effects makeup in general is so much fun. Maybe it’s due to my fascination and love for makeup, but there’s nothing more fun then listening to good music and turning yourself into a work of art. Even if that art is worthy of a horror film.

This week I did not have the opportunity to meet my mentor in person, but we were able to FaceTime this week and talk game plan. Since getting my hands on all the right products has been quite the challenge, this week we chose to work on the basis of most gory looks: skin tones and bruising. Bruises and complexion looks can be created simply with eyeshadow, lipstick, and whatever you may have on hand. Easy peasy.  Ashley explained to me that wounds and blood catch the eye, but bruising and skin tones make it look real. She’s got a point! A dead person wouldn’t look quite dead without the right complexion, and a wound wouldn’t look quite right without irritated skin. Learning how to make realistic bruises creates a good base for forming scarring and wounds in the future. The photo’s attached are from the best look I created while practicing some bruising with nothing but eyeshadow and lipstick!


Now, an update on the modelling situation: I got WAIT-LISTED. But it’s not the end of the world. The February interview schedule was fully booked before I could bat an eye, but March is here and I couldn’t be happier. Numa also emailed me AGAIN telling me they wanted to make sure I got a spot in for March and that they would make sure this time works out. As much as having to anxiously wait SUCKS… I am so thrilled that that emailed me again and are still giving me this opportunity. I can’t wait!

Back to the mentoring side of things. This week was more hands on learning, therefore most of my questions to Ashley were product and technique based. We also were able to connect and share stories with each other. One story in particular which really stuck with me was about how Ashley used to create art using makeup on canvas. She said that this wasn’t just because she loved makeup, but because she said that she didn’t need paint to create art on a canvas. Just like I don’t need certain products to be able to create realistic effects. Not only were her stories relatable and interesting, but they were also encouraging and comforting.

For the next week, I am definitely going to work more on my bruising and skin tones, as well as continue shopping for products like latex and fake blood (one which doesn’t stain my skin!) This week I also am hoping that I can meet up with my mentor, and work on some effects with her at my side. I also need to address the criminal record check with her once again. As much as I hate having to bring it up with her all the time and feel like a pest, I don’t want to repeat last year where I never got it in!

That’s all for now blog, I’ll keep you posted (literaly!)



les amis qui ont fait le gouvernement responsable!


Je m’appelle Sir Louis-Hippolyte Lafontaine. The year is currently 1848. I am currently 41 years old. J’habite à  Canada East.

I am noting the day, as today is one which I predict to go down in history. This glorious day marks seven years since the Act of Union has come into effect. Today also marks the ending of the Act of Union, as finally after seven years, London has recognized and accepted the use of French in the Province of Canada. Nous l’avons fait! Now that this decision has been made, the doors have finally been opened for myself and Robert Baldwin to take the lead as the first deocratic government of the Province of Canada. Not only are Baldwin and I a strong team, but this idea of a responsible government is strongly favored by Govener Charles Bagot who will be able to block policy in order for us as Executive Council to access Francophones.

Many still see Baldwin and I as an unlikely duo due to our origions, however, I demand that everyone cram the idea that political parties must be based off of opinion and not origin into their small minds.  I do not see one man of Lower Canada and one of Upper Canada as a challenge, but rather as a nessisary partnership. Without Baldwin at my side, there is no way that the Province of Canada would be able to counter London’s attempts to dictate our affairs. Besides, this partnership provides advantages to both of us, as long as we can assure that we both become members of the House of Assembly and Executive Council. I see this in my future, and have no doubt that we will be able to create independance for Canada- a united Canada.

As we march forward in the process of becoming united, I have come to the understanding that I must abandon the concept of a French state in America and play British politics to ensure the survival of French Canadians in British North America. However, this idea is only temporarily put aside, as nothing bring me more joy than the idea of a French-Canadian Province. It saddens me to ponder the idea of racial distinctions and how their roots in public administration and institutions keep us steps from social peace and freedom.

Anyways, to whomever may lay their eyes on this journal page, I am now rambling on and on. I shall go but still keep you posted.

à la prochaine,

Sir Louis-Hippolyte Lafontaine

The War of 1812 & How it Shaped Canada

This article by the Toronto Star really dives into how such a small, forgotten war, still managed to shape Canada as a nation. As many people do not see a winner at the other end of the tunnel that is The War of 1812, this war did hammer people into a unified whole: Canadians. A collective group which fought together for their land and avoided getting swallowed up by Americans. Few in 1812, if any, were aware that they were defending what would become the second-biggest country in the world.  And surely none could predict that the roots they planted and protected would grow into the unique, free and beautiful Canada which we inhabite today.

It began in confusion, with the United States declaring hostilities unaware that one of its major war aims was already addressed. And it ended that way, too, with a last, pointless battle fought weeks after a peace treaty was signed. Civilians on both sides suffered, there were horrible massacres, and even more bungling by generals than is customary in warfare. And yet the War of 1812 had a powerful, invigorating influence on what would become Canada. Indeed, had the struggle been lost, this country likely wouldn’t exist.

To check out the rest of this article by the Toronto Star, Click Here

OHMYGOODNESS: In-Depth Post #3


Okay, Okay, let me explain. Not only did I get to meet with my amazing mentor Ashley for the first time, am writing this blog post on a plane to Las Vegas, but just yesterday I received an email for a MODELING INTERVIEW! Yes- Numa Models contacted me for an interview at the end of the month to see if I could be a potential model. How crazy is that? Not only is this an amazing experience in general, but I may get to see a real set where professional makeup is used. If I were to be involved in modelling, I could talk to artists as well as see the relationship between the camera and the makeup. I am beyond excited. I will keep you all posted on how this interview goes for sure. Whether I become a model or not, this is a crazy opportunity.

Anyways, onto the next reason in which I love In-Depth right now (not that I don’t usually love it… it’s just a love-hate type thing!) On Monday I got the opportunity to meet my mentor for for the first time. We met for coffee at Starbucks and talked about a number of things. One of them being eyebrows? Strange. But at least we agreed on the fact that eyebrows should always be filled in using a darker colour and not one which is too light or matching the natural colour. I think I impressed her with my use of the term “spoolie” (a tool used for eyebrows). She complimented me eyebrows and the rest of my makeup right off the bat- I could tell we were going to be a great team.The first talked about In-Depth, and I gave her a better explanation of the project as well as showed her all of my posts and videos from my last in-depth. We then discussed was the criminal record check. She agreed to do it this week as soon as she has free time, and we would then meet up once I get back from Las Vegas.

Speaking of going to Vegas, I also spoke to my mentor about this. I mentioned the trip without too much in mind, but she reminded me of how much I could learn from this experience. Being someone who has worked in Vegas, as well as vacationed there several times, she told me about Fremont St. and how many talented makeup artists and celebrity impersonators there are all over the place. She told me I should talk to them and ask to take pictures in order to get my hands on as many tricks of the trade as possible. There’s also the chance of finding some real celebrities down there… Exciting!

We also talked about what makes me so interested in special effects makeup. I used a lot of stories, as recommended by how to have a beautiful mind, in order to be relatable and interesting. I told her how I remember my mom telling me “it’s all makeup, it’s not real.” and how that’s caught my interest ever since. I also explained how important and cool special effects makeup is in general. Not only does it pull a good movie together, but it’s art which someone can wear! That’s what Ashley said her favourite part of her job was. It’s the same as an artist hanging a painting up in a museum. She also mentioned that special effects is the only talent which improves another person’s talent. She explained how when an actress has fake blood dripping down their face- they hands down act better. I believe it!

At the end of the meeting, she gave me her phone number and told me that she would send me the name of the store which she gets all her product, as well as a list of what I should get my hands on first.

Anyways, I’ll keep you posted (ha hah) on the interview and the rest of my adventures!

Viva Las Vegas!